bullets and razorblades
now that we know that we exist
we will never be the same
speaking from a logical point of view
we will never be the same again
bullets and razorblades
temporarily separate us
bullets and razorblades
tearing out the flesh with cold barbed-wire
remove my heart and brain
i'll never feel a thing again
separate but equal in all respects but one
bullets and razorblades
will only make us stronger
bullets and razorblades
just can not decide what's worse
to be tied or to be blind
to love never again
for one  reason or another i can not seem to hide
i wonder why that is
bullets and razorblades
tear my world asunder
bullets and razorblades
pulling off my limbs the children play again
they're tired innocence is more than i can bear today
just ripping me apart
can't go through this again
bullets and razorblades
thought i was justified
once condemned and twice removed
bullets and razorblades
        Dilemma
	knife to the hand
D  4	blade to the wrist
	cut to the vein
	blood to the ground
    .1	blood drips to the floor
	(because i cant take this pain anymore
	 because its killing me inside
	 these constant thoughts of suicide)
L
    2	then i see you walk in
	face buried in guilt
I	tears drop to the floor
	(thoughts of murder, thoughts of war
	 are taking my soul away
	 now filled with regret and self-hate)
M
	and i think to myself
    3	what have i done?
	what have i done?
A  1	dead body falls to the floor
A  1	what have i done?
preacherboy (original)
reach out
{reach out and touch me}
your god is your weakness
{I am inside you}
so fragile and soft
{I created your world}
in a world of broken metal
{I will destroy you my son}
I dont take the time for apologies
I will hurt you
mouth is abrasive
cuts like razorwire
I will enlighten you
send your heaven crashing to the ground
let me fix the broken pieces of you
of your angels
I will destroy your god
open your eyes
and give you a new idol to pray to
so niave
preacherboy
so clean
preacherboy
you reach no one
physically abusing
beating and pushing [bruising]
hitting and kicking
"stupid faggot
you deserve to die
we will send you to your 'hell'
preacherboy"
and theres nothing you can do
not very christian of you
practice what you preach
preacherboy
so niave
preacherboy
so unclean
preacherboy
you will burn
ill let you recover
just to push you once again
rest and let your scars heal
lost without resistance
lying in your chair
you know you can never win
but I guess nobody is perfect
that is how it goes
surrender your beliefs
or we will crucify you
so naive
preacherboy
unbelieve
preacherboy
soft and fragile
so unclean
we will kill you
just to hear you scream
preacherboy
in the end you will worship me
bow down get on your knees and worship me
I will come
and rescue you from yourself
preacherboy
soft spoken words
abused
preacherboy
full of thorns
persecuted
preacherboy
eyes filled with poison
heart full of shame
preacherboy
so ugly
preacherboy
I will take your things away
I will lead you astray
I will take you to your hell
so confused
preacherboy
mocked and burned
misunderstood
preacherboy
prettyboy
{let me reach out and touch you}
requiem
you always were the strong one
I hear the sound of the dead
so dead
I lay here with those slain
before me
tears roll down
sweet death comforts me
I rest with you
im yours
your heart is true
I'll always be
in your memory
I'll be with you
just dont go
please dont leave me 
stay with me
stay here with me
we will be together
eternally
the silence takes you from me
good bye, good bye
I'll see you in my dreams
good bye, farewell
I'll guide you through my prayers
from the other side...
resist
I wake up
flip through the channels
there is never anything worth watching
not anymore
everything
old
cold
faded
and worn
the world has grown quiet and still
shouting through my misery
in silent voices
I can no longer hear
so I turn it off
breaking my only window to the outside world
shutting it off completely
its out of my memory
how shallow and pale the world has become
so superficial
so empty
and I wait
in the darkness
of this empty room
for it to start calling me
crying out for me
but alone over the years I have grown immune
starving myself of its insanity
it
force-feeding me violence, pornography, drama, and comedy
an unsettling feeling overtakes me
crawling up my spine, a cold chill
my craving is overcoming me
this hunger it fuels
this urge
wearing down my resistance
my nerves scream
I start to shake
the quiet and peace
rest and the darkness
the calm
tormenting me
it is too late now
I can no longer stand it
I reach for the remote
hesitating for just a split second 
and turn it back on.
darkness
the snake unmasked, fangs glimmer in the night
a painful bite, but precious venom lack
it quickly vanishes out of my sight
into an endless sky of white and black
eyes bleeding black from black to bitter blue
my wine's turned to poison, pleasure to pain
i cry my final tears, my precious few
until the clock strikes three, and three remain
on my dark bride's grave comes my final rest
black was her color, and black was her name
to see her face is my final request
my sorrow rains down from black clouds of shame
     my suicide made my agony cease
     now that we're together, my soul's at peace