To Amber.

(this is just to say I'm sorry.)

...looks like I've ruined this once again... I'm sorry for all the things I've done for all the things I've said that made you (feel) this way for all the mistakes I've made for all the times you've cried and I've tried to show you that I'm not like all the rest I've done my best but that's not enough. I owe you more than this could ever be (you mean so much to me) but because we are like this no longer one and I haven't time enough to apologize fully for you and me, I guess this is the end for you and I, I guess this is goodbye. ((I thought we were meant to last but the time goes by so fast.)) But I tried too hard to make you realize that I am sensitive inside and I could never be never, all that you want from me because you are so full of life and I... and I... And I could never really give you all that you deserve and I tried as hard as I could to preserve this and I wish I was there for you with you and we meant more to me than anything that I could ever be. And I'm sorry that I never cared about all you had to say I'm sorry that I made you feel this way but I could never really appreciate all you had to offer for all the things I'll never give and all I never gave I just wish something could save us, take this all away and I know that someplace deep inside that I will always love you. I have never felt this deeply about anyone in my life. ((I have never felt this emptied by anyone in my life.)) Wish that I could be with you on my way. And I'm sorry I never showed you all the precious little things I hold so close that I could never change myself for us I'm sorry I never really understood all that you mean to me, until now but it's too late anyhow it's time to end the show pack it up, it's time to go I'm so sorry that things had to end this way. I hope I become a part of you. I know that you've become a part of me. ((I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.)) When I think about all I have done. When I think about all I haven't done. ((When I close my eyes, forever in my heart you will be know that no matter what, I can never forget you.)) And I thank you for all the tender kisses for all your smiles thanks for all the nights when you would let me hold you close those i loved the most wish we could share it all once again I thank you for all that I have learned (from you) and all I ever loved (about you) I think it fair to say that you were always right and I was wrong again. I'm sorry.